For Elena (original)

All of us, or at least the majority of us, become doctors because we want to help people. We’re idealists, hoping that we can make a difference in people’s lives. After two weeks with a refugee doctor, I realised that sometimes, we can’t.

Everyday, I heard stories of families being separated because of war, innocent loved ones being killed or even worse, being deported back to the place they fled from.

I was frustrated. So frustrated that their stories stayed with me even after I left the clinic, even during my sleep. I hated that my patients had to go through this and worst of all, I hated the fact that I can’t do anything about it.

During my final day, I received a patient about my age who has been through a lot more pain than anyone in their 20s should do. I asked her what she wanted me to do and she just said she wanted someone to listen to what’s inside her heart. Even though I was happy she eventually left the clinic with a smile, I was burdened more than ever.

I realised that as a doctor, and as a person, I’m limited. I can’t change the world, I can’t stop the evil that’s happening around us, and I can’t undo what has happened to the victims I meet. What I can do though, is be there for them and pray. And so that’s what I’ve been doing.

This is a song I wrote for that patient (the title is not her real name) and all the other patients I met and will meet. To my patients, I’m sorry for everything that has happened, but I hope and pray that everything will be okay from now on.

 

Firestone by Kygo (cover)

This weekend I had to quickly go home to Stockholm to pick up a few things. Not very eventful really, but I did manage to get some time with the piano! I haven’t been doing a lot of music lately, and I still have to upload the song I recently wrote but as you guys might understand, moving to a new medical school takes up a lot of time and energy!

In terms of that,¬†everything seems to be going quite well so far. First week done! But I think I need to wait another few days or weeks to really settle in and really get the feel of the place. I’ll write all about it soon, I promise!

But for now, here’s a piano cover of Firestone by Kygo, and I really apologise for the mistakes in the middle hehe. Hope you all had an amazing weekend!